Wednesday, June 13, 2012

A Letter to Me

Migraine Awareness Month #13: "You Are Beautiful"

Today's blogging challenge prompt: Write yourself a love letter. Tell yourself how wonderful you are. Remind yourself of the things you have accomplished despite Migraines. There are times when we need to be reminded of the good things about ourselves that others see that we may have missed.

OK, first off, I've missed a few days again. That's what happens when you have chronic migraines. UGH.

So, write myself a love letter, eh? Interesting. I'm not even sure how to start. I recently won an award. It was a pretty big award for me, Democratic Woman of the Year for my state's Democratic Women's organization. I could think of at least 100 women I see on a regular or semi-regular basis that I think probably deserve it more than me, but I won it anyway. The women who nominated me where some pretty amazing women themselves and anyone of them deserved the award more than me, actually. I don't know if I was supposed to read it or not, but my husband let me read the letter that these women wrote to nominate me. It made me realize that I have done a lot of things in spite of these awful monsters called Migraines. Sometimes when I need to be reminded that I am more than just a big pile of pain and migraine, I re-read that letter. I believe I'll read it now, and then try to write something heartfelt to myself...


Dear Self,

Once upon a time, you thought your worth was to be measured by your accomplishments. Boy, times have changed. Migraine taught you that. Life is made up of so much more than just a series of accomplishments and degrees and trophies you can hang on your wall. It's about the people who love you and the people you choose to love, and the contributions you can make to the world, illness or not. It's about the people's lives you can touch in some way or another, and the positive impact you can have. Without Migraines, I am not sure you would have learned that, or not sure when you would have learned that.

You still feel sometimes like you don't have a purpose or you aren't doing enough because you can't have that high-powered career you always dreamed of. Don't. You have more than so many will ever get to have. You are the center of your husband's universe, you have parents and a brother who would do anything to make you well, you have a niece and nephews who think you are the funnest, coolest person on the planet, and friends who love you in spite of your crazy inconsistent migraine schedule. On top of this, you've found a way to volunteer for things that matter on the good days, and found a way to be involved and contribute to the world around you in a way that works with your schedule. A few years ago, this would have been impossible because there weren't any good days. Rejoice in the improvement! Rejoice in the contributions you can make!

When you get depressed and feel like you aren't doing enough, or feel overcome by pain, think of yourself as those who love you think of you. See yourself as the wife at the center of your husband's universe, as the daughter and sister your parents find so worthy of love, as the cool aunt that your niece and nephews just want to hang out with. Remember your friends, who in spite of migraines, still call and write and want to hang out. Life is about the people who love you and those you choose to love. Remember the joy you get from volunteering for worthy causes. Life is about the contributions you can make and the positive impact you can have. Remember there is so much more to life, and so much more to you, than pain and migraines!

Love,

You

National Migraine Awareness Month is initiated by the National Headache Foundation. The Blogger's Challenge is initiated by www.FightingHeadacheDisorders.com.

4 comments:

  1. Beautiful! We all need to remember that we are more than what we see in ourselves. Great post!

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  2. Thanks, Dawn. It's difficult to remember sometimes when we are always in pain.

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  3. Your story could also be my story. It made me cry. Thanks for a beautifully written tribute to yourself.

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  4. Thank you, Jill. That means so much that you found it moving.

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