Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Migraine Awareness Month #5: Carousel: You'll Never Walk Alone

I am beginning to feel like a broken record.  I am singing the praises of the people in my life in every blog post--but the subjects require it.  I want to dedicate this post solely to my husband--C.

C is by my side day in and day out, regardless of how I feel.  When I feel good, he's ready to compliment me and take me out and help me celebrate the good times.  Or, he's willing to simply stay home and let me "catch up" on rest and enjoy feeling good at home while I catch my breath between migraines.  I know he'd rather go out and do something on those days.  I know he's been sitting at home waiting on me to feel good so he would have a partner again to go out and explore the world with.  But still, he's patient and waits and lets me do whatever I need to do, whatever I feel up to, with no pressure on me to do the things HE would prefer.

Because of the migraines and the need to be in the dark and be very still and quiet when I am in pain, I spend a lot of time in our dark bedroom, in the quiet and stillness.  Of course, I am usually alone, and because of the pain, I often can't sleep and right now don't have proper medications to help me sleep.  C can't bear the thought of me laying back in our bedroom, awake and in pain, alone.  So he will come to our room, just to lay with me and hold my hand so I know I'm not alone.  I can't imagine how boring that must be for him.  But he does it anyway.  He just wants me to know he's there, he loves me, and I am not alone.  It is comforting, and man, I love him for that.

He does millions of other things to let me know I am not alone in this disease too.  He travels with me to my doctor's appointments, he helps me reason through my medication decisions when I am in too much pain to think for myself, he holds me when I cry, he holds me when I don't cry, he doesn't ever pressure me to do things I don't feel like doing.  He always thinks of my health first.

I was healthy when we married.  He didn't know this was the life he was choosing.  He could leave.  Few people would blame him.  He stays.  He tells me he will always stay, and you know what?  He makes me believe it.  I love that man.  He walks beside me no matter what I have to walk through, and that's pretty amazing.  With C in my life, I know I'll never walk alone.

June, Migraine and Headache Awareness Month, is dedicated to Unmasking the Mystery of Chronic Headache Disorders.  The Migraine and Headache Awareness Month Blog Challenge is issued by FightingHeadacheDisorders.com

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